Love hurts...

I've just spent the last 72 hours planning six trips, out of which, only one am I going to realistically go through with. Isn't it weird how we go through such inane things in life - and to what avail? Well, at least I'm being productive, if not for myself, at least for other people. 
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Why do people take others for granted? I've never understood it. A whole year together, and six months into it I was already feeling like he was taking me for granted. Since then...he's still taking me for granted. I mean I think that's a big part of what bothered me, but what's more is the fact that I've never felt there's been any passion. It's one thing to say that passion dies down - that sort of passion can be re-ignited...but if it was never there..then what do you do?
And of course, to top it all off, a year together and he did absolutely nothing. Nothing! Can you believe it? Not even 3 weeks later, when he was reminded 3 days after...am I really that unlovable? Is it me? Am I just not worth the effort? God, if only he knew what was going through my mind. He knows the important bits, after all, I could hardly expect him to read my mind. But for him to know my pitiful vulnerable side? I think I'll pass. 
Every day I get a little bit stronger, and I convince myself I did the right thing. But the big question is still - is it meant to be temporary or permanent? Sometimes I feel we were meant to be, that we'd make a perfect couple. But if that's how much pain I'm in after a year, imagine after 5 years...and I think, you know what? I could really do without it. 
Love hurts, there's no denying that. And the more you love, the more pain and despair you'll feel. And I was head over heels in love. Now? I'm not too sure. As I said, you can't fall in love if you're not willing to take all the risks. Someone once said that Love is a bit like jumping of a building, you put all thoughts of your life before behind you and put all your trust into one other person. "It is far better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all". 
You know what? He claimed that he didn't want to take the jump because he'd been hurt before (nearly 5 years ago...and he's had a few relationships since). 
He has hurt me more than anyone else before...but in spite of that, I'd be willing to take that jump again and risk that pain just to experience all the good things that come from falling in love. I'm just not sure whether I'm willing to take that risk with him again.